其实..

..我不是真正快乐的。

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Life After You

Ten miles from town and I just broke down

Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just trying to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothing
To see you so I've started running

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a boy with sight could be so blind
Thinking about the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm running back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do...

Monday blues

I s*cked so badly in training yesterday that if my floorball stick was a double barrel, I would have shot myself in the head to end my own embarrassment. Urghh. =( I did almost 150 push ups. For every shot missed - 20 push ups. And I think I did only 10 for some. So you do the math. SIGH.
But I know it's my own fault for missing training for the past one month. And being away for 2.5 years requires me to get used to Innebandy's tactics and speed AGAIN. Definitely different from my Sabah team.

So I feel like a jelly now after yesterday's physical session. I can't lift up my arms immediately, I have problem squatting down...I feel...rusted. I have no idea how I'm gonna handle tomorrow's state training. =(

Sorry people. I'm just having my usual Monday blues. Never knew what it truly meant until I started working 2 weeks ago. But guess what??
My mentor/senior worker gave me this and she made the rest of my day a little brighter. =)

Though pink's NOT really my color but..thank you Ms. Phang!!! =)
I'm gonna stop whining and go finish up my report now.
'Cause tomorrow's gonna be a better day.
I know it. & He promised. =)

And as I was talking to Uncle James after training yesterday, I felt so encouraged and appreciated when he gave me a thumbs up after I told him that I love my country and I wanted to stay in Malaysia. I know our country's politics are horrible. I know that our government system is far from satisfaction.
But I too know that God place me in Malaysia for a reason. I want to serve Him in this land; I want to serve and love the people He placed around me; and I want to make a difference here.
I have a purpose. I have a destiny. And I know it's all right here -
the land I call my country. =)

Updates

Since I haven't post anything up since Christmas so let me give you an update on things happening around me lately kay? =) Let's start with Christmas first kay?

[That's how my table looks like few days before Christmas]

[Got a few funny things for present and this is one of them. Hahaha! It's a notebook la.]

[And I got this from Johanathan for Christmas! Love it so much!]

[Look like him hor? I remember used to tell everyone I wanna marry Jay Chou wan. -.-"]

[Theresa, Eeleen, Ayen. After Christmas drama. I'm gonna miss you Ayen. =)]

And then came Youth Camp 2009 at Cinta Sayang Resort. =)
[Spot me!]

[Spot me again!]

[Spot me again again! Ok. This is getting lame.]

[Tug-of-war at the water themepark.]

[And these are my beloved group members. Who emerged as overall Champions of the camp!! X)]

[Let's point to Jesus! Love all of you to the max!!! =)]

And while me and brother were in camp, my parents went to Singapore. A break away from us monsters. Haha. =)

[*Tune* I saw mommy hugging Santa Claus, and then my daddy badly beat him up..Hahahahahaha! =)]

And lastly...had a performance at E&O hotel for USM's Lifeguard Corps 30th Anniversary yesterday.
[Pic taken by Ms. Ashley Tan Sue Lyn. =)]

That's all for now people! =)

Oh ya!! Yours truly is currently working. Err..internship actually. =) Love what I'm doing. But hate the wake-up-early-not-enough-sleep-keep-repeating-the-same-procedures-horrible-smelling-food-lab part. X) Hehe.

New year, new start

I've been wanting to post this up for ages but whenever I finish writing the first sentence, I just delete the whole post.
My 2009 didn't end too well, neither did I start my year 2010 awesome-ly.
But I made decisions. Decisions I never knew I could make. It was heart-breaking but I know when I look back 5 years from now, I will not regret it. I did it for God. I did it for us.

Life's like a race. I didn't start my race for 2010 too well. But it's not about how you start your race, but how you run it, and most important of all...how you end it. =)
I know, believe and trust God for a great year ahead.
I'm not getting any younger as years goes by, and I definitely can feel the responsibilities and commitments on my shoulders duplicating.

But hey...it's just part of growing up. =) Of course I miss the times when I was still schooling. Let me list down a few things I did in school which I was "proud" of:

1. One of my teacher threw a piece of chalk at me and my best friend and my friend caught it. She walked up to the front and gave it back to her. It was a duster after that. X)
2. Was punished to stand at the corridor when I was in Form 5 with all the juniors looking. And I was waving happily to them! XP
3. I have a special seat in chemistry lab which is next to the teacher right in front, facing the whole class. Imagine that. Hahahahahaha!
4. I climbed up to the roof of the school to take a picture. -.-"

No. My results weren't sucky. I was pretty bright. Pretty only ha. =) And I excelled in sports, music, and everything else. But I didn't forget to have fun. I never regretted like some of my book-worm-friends, who studied so much and "neglected" fun. But of course their results were so much better than mine la. Hahahahaha. =)

Decisions I made yesterday has brought me to where I am today. Yes, I do regret some but there's nothing I can do to change things. But my Creator's grace is always sufficient for me.
And thank you Mom and Dad. For always being there for me like a parent, like a friend. And to all of you who've left something in my heart, I'll always remember. Even if you just walked past. =)

I am where I am today because of yesterday. I wouldn't change anything even if I were to start all over again.
Maybe a little la. Hehe.