Another Great Chapter Has Ended

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL 2011 GRADUATES OF UMS!! :)

I was back in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah the past weekend for my convocation. :)
It was really great to see my friends again after 6 months. Yes, my convocation is 6 months after my final examinations. Long overdue. Haha!

I had fun. :) The ceremony was well organized; the orchestra/band played incredibly well; and the automated name-calling machine pronounced my name correctly!! :) Heheheheeeee.
Didn't know UMS would actually use such a cool system. :P
And it was also very nice to be able to catch up with my friends. Some are working, some stopped working (a little too soon don't you think. LOL), some changed a 2nd job (just like me), some haven't start working, and some doing their Masters. :) All the best peeps!! Will keep you guys in my prayers. 

[The bestie and also the pain in my arse for the past 4 years. Haha!]

[Lala kept her promise and came together with Ee Hong. Thank you girls..:)]

[Hui San and I :)]

[Before the ceremony: zhinieeleenjenniferhueyyiyifuijulingkelyn :D]

[Thank you so much for everything xiao zhu..thank you for being there for me always..]

[Love the heart shape balloons!! Okay..I'm a sucker for balloons. Teeheehee.]

[Little miss pretty and myself]

[Taaadaaaa!!! Our first class student!! Laiyee..I'm so proud of you. Really. :)]

[Forever Friends Graduation bear from hun :)]

:)

[This is the very precious picture of me with Dee and Mee. I was stupid enough to not take more pictures with them. Degree graduate konon. -___-"]

Dee & Mee, thank you so much for everything. Thank you for your love and support while I was away from home for studies for the past 4 years. People and friends come and go, but for all these years you've always been there. So thank you. Love you guys so much!! :) And I hope you're proud of me.

Just around the corner

I received my earliest (ever) and first Christmas card of the year yesterday, all the way from New Zealand!! :)
Thanks baby girl. I'm always, always thankful for a godsis like you. :) Faster come back laaaa..can't wait to see you again.
By the way I've figured out what I want dy lu:
a New Zealand cow. Serious.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D Mooooo....

Why la even other country's Christmas cards are nicer...........-____-"

Christmas is exactly a month and a day away!! :) Wheeeeee!!! :)
*Jingle bell Jingle bell*

Get A Life: 1UP

It only took me 3 weeks of working to realize how working can really drain the life out of you.

You're tied down for at least 9 hours a day, and at the end of the day you're probably so tired, you don't have the energy for friends and sport activities. You probably don't even spend time talking to your parents or partners. It's unacceptable and awful! :(

So if you realize by now you're one of these people, go get a life. :) Either you do something to spice up your life or add a little something into your busy schedule.
Find time to meet friends, do a movie marathon, hang out with your siblings or parents, go running, join the gym and meet people. Something. Anything. Rather than you live a boring, ritual and draggy life. Not exactly the kind of life God has installed for any of us.

Even Mario needs his mushroom for an extra life when the game sucks the juice out of his life. :)

Working Life

The adults were right about one thing. Studying is always better than working!! :(

Well, I'm not complaining about my current job. My first one really did suck though. It only lasted me 2 weeks. Heheheheee. I'm probably the only one among my friends who has change 2 jobs after working for only 2 months. :P Haha!

I'm still in the initial phase of working, still adapting. I don't know if this is what I want to do for long term; I don't really know what I like or prefer; I don't know if the job suits me; I don't even know if I like my colleagues. Everything just feels "bland and boring". Is there something wrong with me?? :/
Sigh.

I don't feel excited to go to work (I presume nobody does, HAHA); but I don't feel dreadful that I have to go to work every morning too. It just feels like something I HAVE TO DO. That's how I define work for now.

However, I'm glad I'm into sales and marketing. :) 
I remember telling my parents that I don't want to do sales (with utmost certainty), but I came to realize that if a person can survive in sales line, you'd probably have a higher chance of succeeding in life. 'Cause everything you do in life involve sales.
When you go for interviews, you promote yourself;
When you go dating, you promote yourself;
When you go buy fish in the market, you negotiate price with the fishmonger;
When you meet your future in laws for the first time, you do your best to make them like you and accept you.
S.A.L.E.S.
Plus, all the great businessman or pioneers of various industries that we know started off doing sales too: The late Steve Jobs, Donald Trump, Warren Buffet and even our very own Tony Fernandes!! :)

I'm not saying that if you're in IT line or doing admin you won't succeed in life. No no..:) It's just me, and what I believe for now. :)

Back to life

I guess this blog has been dead long enough. I'm sorry Dear Blog. :(
But guess what? I'm gonna try my best to bring you back to life, soon!! *Cross my heart*
Who cares if nobody reads you. It's my my blog, my space, my page!!
Plus, it has WAY more privacy than facebook now. And it's exactly what I need for now. :)

I'm gonna find back the momentum that I lost for blogging. Til then, hang on my dear readers. If there's any. Haha. :) Tsk tsk tsk. :)

The Second Time You Fall in Love with Someone - By Ryan O'Connell

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you. You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you can sleep well at night.

The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched, untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go into it again, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve learned. You’re going to say, “Love me, love me, love me…until you don’t. In which case, I would like some advance warning. Thanks!”

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to compare it to your first love. That’s okay. That’s natural. You’re going to be studying the new love with judgement and wariness. “My ex never liked broccoli. Why the hell does this one eat so much broccoli?!” Discovering that you have the ability to love multiple people who are different and feel different is initially very jarring. Loving an unfamiliar body will leave you disoriented and in dire need of a map. That’s okay too. That’s to be expected. Just ask the new love for directions.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to suffer from a bout of amnesia. You’re going to poke and prod at your lover’s body and be like, “Wait, how do I do this again? How do I love you? I think it starts with us having a moment together in some coffee shop, right?” It’s going to feel scary at first. Falling in love is sort of like riding a bike though. You never really forget.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’ll be a more sane person. Your first love is when you get all of your insanity out. You behave like an insane monster because your mind is freaking out about all these new powerful feelings. By the second time, however, you have an idea of what works and what doesn’t. It’s by no means perfect. The insanity will make a cameo at some point. “Peek a boo. I’m here! Hope you didn’t forget about me!” But you can usually shoo it away after awhile.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you will hopefully have better sex. Do not quote me on this.

The second time you fall in love with someone will still be exciting and you might even talk about moving in together or marriage. It will feel more “adult.” You have no idea what adult love actually is but you think it involves making coffee for each other in the morning and maybe even getting a dog. “This is my dog, Xan. I got him with the second person I fell in love with because that’s what you do! The first person I was in love with would’ve killed a dog.”
The second time will not be the first time. The first time is an insane magical life gift that you can never reclaim. But that’s okay. The second time is more real anyway. The second time can involve some amazing love.

I had to share this after reading this. =)
Please note that it's not written by me, but by Ryan O'Connell on the Thought Catalog website.
Click here for the original post.
http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/the-second-time-you-fall-in-love-with-someone/

If I were a boy

Interesting question ain't it..?? =)
Trust me, I've wondered that many times. I've always been very tomboyish since I was a little girl. My friends played with Barbie dolls and teapots but I was out cycling and climbing trees with other boys which I can't seem to recall their names or faces; or I'll be playing those tiny green soldiers with my brother and when things get heated up, I wrestle with my brother until either one of us starts crying or gets hurt.
Teeheehee..=) WELCOME TO MY LIFE.

So, If I were a boy, even for a week...let me try to list down 10 things I would do. =)
Please note that these are things I would do if I am a boy for a week. And I'm not gonna waste time writing all those nice, sweet things like, I won't hurt a girl, or I'll respect a girl..that'd be quite boring ey. =D
 
1. I think I'll swim naked in the sea for once. Being a girl you can't do that AT ALL!

2. I'll spike my hair!! Wanna know how myself look like in Tae Yang's haircut. =)

3. I'm gonna take a one day kick-boxing course, then go and punch the guys that once broke my best friends' hearts. I'll do this on the last day before I turn back into a girl so they won't be able to find me. Muahahahaha. =D And I'll leave a note: That's for breaking XXX's heart. LOL.

4. I'm gonna go find my brother in my male form and see if he notices any similarity, and then tell him who I really am to scare the crap out of him. ;)

5. I'm gonna rent a Ferrari, put on a super good looking suit, "Vroom vroom" across crowded areas where tons of girls are looking at me; and then go pick up the plainest looking girl in the crowd (the kind that seem to just tag along with her best friend because her best friend ask her to. And because she's so plain no other guys are even interested in her), just to teach those other girls that appearance is not everything! And then I'll tell that plain girl that someday she's gonna find someone who loves her for real and she doesn't have to try so hard just to fit in. =)

6. I'll go to those sauna or jacuzzi rooms. Tsk tsk tsk.. Are you thinking what I'm thinking? ;) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. Wait..do the men go naked in there? LOL.

7. I'm gonna eat so much, burp so much, and fart whenever I want. You can't do that as a girl! =D

8. Then I'll ask my best friend out for a date (if she's single) and see what she is like when she's out with a guy..Hehehehe..=)

9. If I were a boy, I think..I think la..I'll go pick a fight and feel the adrenaline rush while avoiding being punch. =)

10. If I were a boy, I know, for sure this time, I wouldn't treat girls the way many girls are being treated today, and make this world a better place.

Please forgive my insanity while writing this. =) Just my crazy thoughts.

Abandoned blog

My blog has been so abandoned la. I keep telling myself to post something at least once a week, but end up failing to do so. Sigh. I guess Facebook is partly at fault 'cause it's so much easier to post things on Facebook as compared to writing it here. =P Sorry Blogspot! Hehe.

Well, a little update on myself then. =) I've FINALLY finish my Degree in University. Phew. Time really flies. There goes my 4 years full of fun, excitement, friends, and all sorts of ups and down. If you ask me if I would still go to Sabah if I get to choose again, I would definitely say "Yes". =)

Anyway, after a two months rest, I started applying for jobs, and I just attended two interviews in the past 3 days. =) It was okay I guess. Still waiting for them to consider. But the funny thing I have to share here is the fact that, at the age of 2x (I'm soooo not gonna reveal my age LOL), my parents still follow me to my interviews. Hahahaha.

Of course I won't bring them up to the office, but it's funny to see how they're so excited for me as I seek for my first job. =) My dad keeps telling me this before I step out of the car: "No RM3k, no talk!" LOL. Then they ask if the company is legitimate; and ask me to bring pepper spray to the interview just in case..etc etc. Hahahahahaha.

PARENTS. You won't understand them until you're one yourself. I guess. =)

Who am I inside?

It's been a while since my last post. Let me see..3 months..? Yea. 3 months.
I was going through my older posts since 2009 and some of them really made me laugh. HAHAHA. And I also realize how much I've changed within this 2 years.
And it got me thinking: What if I were to stay in Penang and not go to Sabah? What if I were to go to Russia for studies? Things would have turned out differently.

I'm thankful for all that has happened and did not happen. And I'm honestly thankful for where I am today.
But there are times when I stand in front of the mirror and wonder who is that girl staring straight back at me?
Sometimes I feel like a live in a world where I have to hide what my heart believes in.

I have a heart that needs to be free to fly. One that burns with a need to know every reason why.

Switch me off

If only feelings can be switch on and off.
Or memories can be deleted at a press of a button.

But life doesn't work that way.