Friday, March 9, 2012

A Letter to Myself

Dear Eeleen,

I hope you're reminded that the fact that you've come this far could only mean one thing: 
That you're special and you're meant for something great. 
Remember how many times you've cried? Remember all the times you've felt like you can't go on anymore?
Remember how you've got your heart broken so many times and didn't understand how can life be so unfair?
And the bazillion times you've failed yourself and those who love you? Failures after failures, mistakes after mistakes. And do you remember how often you told yourself that this would be the last time you'd screw up and realize that it's just a lie you tell yourself?

But look at you today, Eeleen. You're still here. Still pushing on. Still fighting. Still believing. 
That's how it should be. 
Life ain't a bed of roses. It ain't all smooth like pure yoghurt.
Things happen. Sh*t happens. Circumstances change. We meet people who drive us up the wall. And some eventually break our hearts though we gave them everything we have.

But remember one thing, the harder the struggle, the more glorious the triumph. Everything you go through is a story that could help someone someday. Every mistake and teardrop is a lesson learnt. Or like how some people like to put it, there is no mistake. Everything happens for a reason. 
I believe that one can only understand if he or she has gone through it and come out of it with victory. How can you understand someone who felt hopeless if you've not been at that state before? And how can you say you've loved someone, if you haven't been at the situation where his/her happiness is the most important thing, even if it means letting them go? 

Keep believing, Eeleen. Have a leap of faith. His mercy and grace is always sufficient. 
So don't give up. When things get tough, look up. Your strength comes from above.
Do what you love, Eeleen. Don't let the world define you. Don't let them kill your dreams and destroy your passion. I know you feel scared sometimes. It's normal to be afraid. It shows that you're human and it gives you a chance to have faith.
And you deserve to be happy. Don't settle for less, or good enough. Your heavenly Father wants you to have the best of everything in life. So why settle for anything less than that, silly?
Be patient and wait. Let it be His time, His will, His way. 
Til then, always believe.
"A quarter of a century year old now". HAHA. But to be honest, it's just a number. Yes, it comes with responsibilities. But it doesn't mean you have to be all serious and boring. Be young at heart. Be crazy if you have to. As long as you don't get anybody killed, or break any biblical laws. ;)

And ALWAYS..always remember to appreciate those who have been there through thick and thin. Life is short. Make sure you remember to tell them about how you feel before they're gone. You'll never know when. Regretting over something you didn't do or could have done, it the worst feeling one can feel. Don't ever let that happen. Once again, Happy Birthday. :) 


Thursday, March 8, 2012

Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders tonight.
Can't breathe.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Little Reasons To Smile :)

Picture taken from Just Inspiring

Chef Tan

Guess who was busy in the kitchen to prepare us dinner just now??
No, it wasn't me. Hehe.
No, it wasn't mom either.
And please. All WeiJin knows how to cook is instant noodle. Pffffft.
~~~~~~~~*Drum roll*~~~~~~~~
*Cymbal crash!!*
It's Chef Tan!!! A.k.a. DEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
 [Rate: 9/10. Minus one mark for not preparing cutleries. HAHAHAHAHA.]
We ended up using scissors to cut our lamb. Bwahahahahahaha!! :D
Gotta love a man who knows how to cook! :)

Sunday, March 4, 2012


Guess what came in today? :)
Happy monthsary, hun. :) And thank you. They're lovely.

Had my first and a little too early birthday celebration dinner too at Lollipot Steamboat with my parents, WeiJin and XiuQi. :) All paid by the once annoying little boy who's all grown up now but still annoying. Thanks, love. :)
XiuQi gave me this. First birthday present of year 2012!! :) One of the sweetest person I've known. :) You've made history in my life, babe!! HAHA.
[Skin Food Cucumber Soothing Mask]
Thank you. :) All these made my day.
*Wide smile* :)))

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Beauty & Perfection

Perfection - Something we all look for, yet know that it's rather impossible to find.
We might not be perfect outwardly, but we can always strive to be perfect inwardly in terms of character, personality and attitude.
Because this beauty inside you, is the one thing which will be reflected when someday your physical body fails you; or when you scar your face; or when your legs can no longer walk or run. Beauty and perfection will be seen through your character. How you treat others, how you handle a tough situation, how you talk to someone who is trying to pick a fight with you.

Stop trying to look for beauty and perfection out there. Try looking for it from within yourself.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

I couldn't agree more.
Like the quote in Mulan says: 
"The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all."
So did the bible: ...because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into out hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Roman 5:3-5 (NIV)

Whatever you're going through right now, whatever sh*t you're in, remember that at the end of the storm, you'll come out a better person; 
A step closer to being perfect, a step closer to being truly beautiful. :)