Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders tonight.

Can't breathe.

Little Reasons To Smile :)

Picture taken from Just Inspiring

Chef Tan

Guess who was busy in the kitchen to prepare us dinner just now??
No, it wasn't me. Hehe.
No, it wasn't mom either.
And please. All WeiJin knows how to cook is instant noodle. Pffffft.
~~~~~~~~*Drum roll*~~~~~~~~
*Cymbal crash!!*
It's Chef Tan!!! A.k.a. DEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

 [Rate: 9/10. Minus one mark for not preparing cutleries. HAHAHAHAHA.]

We ended up using scissors to cut our lamb. Bwahahahahahaha!! :D

Gotta love a man who knows how to cook! :)

=)

Guess what came in today? :)

Happy monthsary, hun. :) And thank you. They're lovely.

Had my first and a little too early birthday celebration dinner too at Lollipot Steamboat with my parents, WeiJin and XiuQi. :) All paid by the once annoying little boy who's all grown up now but still annoying. Thanks, love. :)

XiuQi gave me this. First birthday present of year 2012!! :) One of the sweetest person I've known. :) You've made history in my life, babe!! HAHA.

[Skin Food Cucumber Soothing Mask]

Thank you. :) All these made my day.
*Wide smile* :)))

Beauty & Perfection

Perfection - Something we all look for, yet know that it's rather impossible to find.

We might not be perfect outwardly, but we can always strive to be perfect inwardly in terms of character, personality and attitude.

Because this beauty inside you, is the one thing which will be reflected when someday your physical body fails you; or when you scar your face; or when your legs can no longer walk or run. Beauty and perfection will be seen through your character. How you treat others, how you handle a tough situation, how you talk to someone who is trying to pick a fight with you.

Stop trying to look for beauty and perfection out there. Try looking for it from within yourself.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

I couldn't agree more.

Like the quote in Mulan says: 

"The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all."

So did the bible: ...because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into out hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Roman 5:3-5 (NIV)

Whatever you're going through right now, whatever sh*t you're in, remember that at the end of the storm, you'll come out a better person; 

A step closer to being perfect, a step closer to being truly beautiful. :)

Mr. & Mrs. Harold Chung

This was supposed to be up a week ago but I have been superbly busy ever since I came back from Sabah. Heh. Sorry for the delay ah..:)
Yes. I flew to KK two weekends ago for Captain Awesome's brother's big day:
Harold and Doreen's wedding. :)

I missed the church wedding 'cause it was on a separate weekday, so I could only make it for the dinner. Nonetheless, it was full of surprises, with a crazy wedding entrance dance (exactly like the one I danced for Matthew and Madalen's wedding dinner), a very cute and funny video of Harold trying to save the world while his bride was anxiously waiting for him to get married LOL, and also a young band performing pretty good music.

The band was seated at our table and Captain Awesome told me that the lead guitarist kept staring at him. So I suspect that he's gay 'cause he had hair twice the length of mine, and he had mascara and eyeliner on, and earring on his right ear. But oh well..I wouldn't mind letting him feast his eye on Captain Awesome for a while 'cause he played good music. HAHAHA. :D

[Table gift. The fake forrero roche was just styrofoam ball inside. Bwahahahahahaha. ]

[The scene before everyone arrives]

[Pretty cake :) ]

[How can you not love roses?!?!]

[Eeleen, Doreen, Harold & Shawn]

[HAHA. I should wear this while running the 2012 PBIM. 

I'll definitely be on Star paper the next day.]

[Like a boss]

[He farted. Hehehehe.]

[Nah..the band. You can guess who checked Captain Awesome out. 

No prize for guessing correctly. Teehee. :D]

And the most epic part of the night is when I was mistaken as Captain Awesome's escort. WTH.
I think it's his aunty. She thought I was only 15 or 16 and thought Captain Awesome hired me to be his escort. WALAO. Pffffft. Captain Awesome felt super insulted, but for me...you gotta be really attractive and smart to be an escort right?? LOL. So I take it as a compliment. HAHAHA.

In the end, I was assigned to give out these roses, since Harold has already paid for it. Plus, it was only few days after Valentine's. So it'd be nice to give the ladies these roses. :)

 

[My Valentine's gift from Shawn. A paper prawn. How nice of him. LOL. 

But then, I gotta compliment him for his origami skills. I suck in origami. Suck big time.]
And no. He didn't give me a paper prawn for Valentine's. Haha.

 [AND YOU HAVE TO MEET LEOPARD!! 

This is Leopard. Cutest cat I've seen so far. :D]

[Look at her adorable pose!! I've never been a cat person. But Leopard's just too cute!! :) ]

I was in KK for barely 48 hours, and had to say goodbye dy. Sigh. But it's okay. I should be seeing him soon. Flew back to Penang early in the morning, and straight away head to Vistana Hotel for my company's annual dinner. I was in charge of the event and was also the emcee, so I had to be there by noon to make sure everything was alright and also for rehearsals.

 [Steven & myself - Emcees of the night]

[Caroline-Eeleen-Ewa. Colleagues from KL.]

Totally knocked out after I reach home. Tired. But it was all worth it. :))

Levi's

Got my first ever pair of Levi's. :) And also my first skinny jeans.
Didn't know I could actually fit into one. HAHAHA.

 [Levi's]

And you gotta admit, there's a huge difference in quality. :) Loving it!
Thanks, hun. For being patient when I try out like 101 pairs of jeans that day. :)

Happy Valentine's

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking,

It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.

Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8a

Happy Valentine's Day to you! Yes, you. :)

Happy Belated Birthday, Ayen!!

Ayen's birthday was like...a month ago?? LOL.
Sorry laaa..busy ma.. Working people are busy people. ;)
But one thing I learnt in life is this: Always remember to make time for your friends. :)
So...yea. Ayen, Ping and I went to Sushi Tei in Gurney Plaza for dinner. All we did was
laugh.eat.talk.laugh.eat.talk.cut cake.take pictures.laugh.eat.talk.laugh.eat.talk.
LOL. :) It was fun.

[Ping]

[Birthday girl all excited over her cake!]

 

[Ping & Ayen]

[HAHAHA!! :P]

[Didn't your mom ask you not to play with fire, Eeleen??]

[Birthday cake]

[Ping: *Mumbling* Dang. This is so expensive. Why did I eat so much?? *Regrets*]

[Eeleen: Please la..just let me pay for dinner okay??]

[Ping: You sure??? *with excitement*]

[Eeleen: Duh.]

[Ping: Ahhhh.. You're the best!!!]

[Eeleen: ><"]

[Ping: Eeleen's the best!! *Thumbs up*]

[Eeleen: Okayyyyyyyyy.]

[Ping: *Feeling all sweet*]

[Eeleen: *Annoyed*]

HAHAHAHAHA. No, this wasn't the original conversation. Couldn't remember what we were talking about. LOL. :)

I wish you the best, Eeleen

I've been very confused lately. My head's been in such a mess.

It feels exactly like the time when I just finish high school and had no idea what I wanna do. But it's worse this time 'cause I'm no longer 17. Sigh.

I feel so trapped. Trapped in a circle. So afraid to take the first step out of it. Not knowing which way to move forward. So I keep going round and round. Round and round. And I'm starting to get tired going in circles.

I wanna step out of this. I need to. I know I was built and made for greatness. I know I was born to do something extraordinary. I just couldn't see it yet, with all this mess in my head.

But I know, from deep within me, I know I was meant for something bigger than this. 

Lord, help me find my way there. Please. Open my eyes to see. You said You wouldn't bring me to place where your grace isn't sufficient for me. And your grace is what I need now. 

Someone wrote me this:

"I know you're 25, and when you're at that age you feel compelled to be someone everyone expects you to be and you have to do things which are 'right'. And I don't want to say anything because it's not my place to be giving a 25 year old advice about what she should do with her life. I understand that it's difficult, what more for you, the one who's stuck in this situation. But whatever your decisions may be, I hope that one day you'll be able to experience all the happiness you truly deserve in this world. I wish you the best, Eeleen."

It made me teared. To know that someone understands what I'm going through. :') 

Gotta step out of this circle. Gotta follow my dreams. They know the way.