Not Ready to Make Nice

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
What it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting 

                                                                                    -Dixie Chicks-

Destructive & hurtful, is all you are to me now.

27th SEA Games, Myanmar

Hello peeps!! :)

It feels soooooo good to be back home, where I have constant, stable data & wifi connection, hot shower and my bed. MY BED..... Ahhhh. :)

 [SEA Games landyard]

So yes. For the past one week, I was at the 27th SEA Games in Myanmar, for Floorball demonstration games. It has always been a dream of mine, to don the Malaysian jersey at least once before I retire from floorball. :) And yes. I will retire someday. Everybody does at some point. Right..?

And the best part of this, is to don the Malaysian jersey together with some of the best and brightest Penang players: Penny, Pei Yi, Winnie, and not forgetting Valerie. Also a Penang k'ia. It is indeed an honour. I remember when I first came back from Sabah, Penny envisioned us playing for the Malaysian team together. And right here today, it came true. :)

*Thank you Pen, for always teaching me and guiding me whenever I feel lost, and always encouraging me to be firm and hold on to the vision of floorball.*

[Myself and Penny :)]

It was indeed a very good experience, and definitely an eye opener, not only in terms of floorball, but life itself. It made me realize how blessed I am back home in Malaysia, and reminded me to be more thankful for all the things I have and don't have back home.

For example, we've been eating almost the same dishes (95% similarity) from Day 1 to Day 7 at the Athletes Village Dining hall. This definitely helped me to appreciate my mom's cooking more!! Haha.

Then there were days when we'd wake up to no water. Heh. There was this morning, I woke up to nature's call, and went straight for the toilet bowl (expecting there will be water as usual). Mana tau... It was a disaster. Thank goodness I have just enough water to flush the toilet. And I basically finished up the very last drop of what's left. So I had to use ice-cold-refrigerated water to wash my butt. asdfghjkl@#$%^&*()?!!! I shall leave you to imagine how it feels to have a frozen butt.

[Fat Myanmar bananas]

As for the games, I really don't have much to comment on, except that we are no where close to the top guns, Singapore. I think it's time for Malaysian floorballers to wake up and realize we need way more training, more discipline, and to get the basics right. Like what Kuan Yang always say: Don't learn to run when you can't even walk properly. :) Nevertheless, it felt so good when I scored my first "international" goal!! Our only goal against Singapore in the first game. But be reminded it was a team effort, I take no pride in it. :)

[After singing the Malaysian anthem]

Singing our Malaysian anthem literally gave me goosebumps. For the first time. :)

[Face off against Singapore Ladies]

Nerve wrecking moment. Heh.

And I made new friends too!! New friends among my own KL teammates, and also people from Singapore, Indonesia and Myanmar. :) People actually thought I was 19-20 years old. AHAHAHAHAHA. Happy die me!!! :D Lalalaaaaaa...... 

[Malaysia boleh!!!]

 [Malaysian Women's Squad]

I have to admit, Winnie should win the best post in this picture. HAHAHA. Reminds me of Sailormoon!!!

[Meet Calvin #71 from Singapore!!]

[& Garfield..... I mean our AWESOME Referee, Bin Bin. :)]

Hehehehe. I'll be so dead if she sees this. Thank goodness we're 687.1 km apart, according to Google maps. Teehee.

[With the locals :)]

[Indonesian Ladies Floorball Team]

 

 [On our way to the chapel on a beautiful Sunday morning!!]

[Wunna Theikdi Indoor Stadium]

[Adorable Pei Yi being all happy with her strawberry cake. LOL.]

We were really, really starving that time. I guess the Singaporean ladies team heard our stomachs grumbling and decided to share their cakes with us. THANK YOU!! :)

[55778899]

And the sexiest butt goes to.......*next picture*

[....This dead fish on the floor!!! #20]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

 

 [Dyla, Alea, Eeleen :) New friend found.]

 [Penang is not only famous for good food. But pretty girls too. :P ]

[With coach Ed.]

Once again, most photogenic award goes to Winnie.

 [#penangfloorball]

[Malaysian Floorball Team]

[Yours truly]

 

This is my first, and probably my last national outing..depending on where life takes me. :) But nonetheless, I really am thankful for this opportunity, to be a part of the Malaysian Floorball Team for the 27th SEA Games. Wouldn't trade all these experience for anything. :) 

17 more days to Christmas!!! 23 more to end the year 2013. Time flies. Ahhhh.

Love,

Problematic Tummy

If you are the kind of person who can eat anything without having to worry about the stomach turning into a washing machine, be really thankful.

I was born with a fairly weak tummy. =/ 

Lactose intolerant. Easily bloated. Indigestion. Diarrhea-prone. Zzz. 

If you need me to list down the foods I have to avoid, there isn't much left to enjoy in life. HAHAHA. 

Really laaa... See ah... No milk (lactose), no ice cream, no cheese, no pineapple (too acidic), guava (too much fiber), tom yam, chilli, curry, peanuts, no char koay teow (oily food causes my stomach to bloat wan I don't know why T.T), no tom yam maggi, no curry mee....... NoooooOOoooooOOOooooooooooooooo...... ='(

So in order to counter this problem, I eat everything and anything I want. YESHHH!!! 

Bwahahahahahahaa. And then run for the toilet. Hehehe. So my brother calls me the "lao sai queen" (diarrhea queen). =)

But I wasn't so lucky yesterday. Suffered from food poisoning and indigestion. So bad I had to go to the doctor. And he said: "Don't simply eat dy ah..."

So I gave doctor this Tom Hiddleston-grin............

[Eh-eh-eh...]

Ahahahahahahaha. XD

Okay. Fine. Fine. I was forced to eat porridge by my mom for two consecutive days already. HAPPY NOW?!?!? >:(

*grumpy*

18th November 2013

A day, I will always remember. =)

Love,

Penang Bridge International Marathon 2013

There's one person I really wanna thank you today, and he is no other than my hero daddy. =)

He stayed up whole night so that he can drive me to Queensbay on time, and was already waiting for me at the designated place ('cause I ran without my phone so we had to confirm a waiting place as he wouldn't be able to contact me). It was the best feeling I felt after a long long time to see him standing there and smiling, and laughing at me at the same time 'cause I was walking one kind. Hmmmp. And to hug him. =)

So yes. I was late for my marathon. Started 5 minutes late. When my dad woke me up it was already 2:30am and I was like sh*t. Zzz. Stupid Twilight kept me up til 12am. Hehehehe. How can you resist vampire movies?!?!?! :D I weally did try to sleep. Weally weally. ;)

Okay. Back to the story, didn't have time for Milo, no time to bang sai (bad bad bad), no time to warm up properly. I ran to the starting line and ran pass it like a boss. Haha.

Running with a colon full of sh*t is bad. Extra load. And it really uspets the tummy. =(

But then something cheered me up. There was this girl running in a cute unicorn mascot!!! It's so fluffy I'm gonna dieeeeee!!! Hahaha. Darn cute la. But I cannot imagine the heat she has to go through wearing that thick suit. Zzz.

[Yours truly]

Timing was satisfactory, since I started chaotically. Heh.

Event Results
9KM Split	:	01:13:01.68
17KM Split	:	02:10:25.27
ChipTime	:	02:48:45.84
GunTime	:	02:49:17.47
Ranking	:	360/1876

It was a good run. I find myself dreaming a lot along the way, looking at stars and also at people's funny way of running. Haha. Enough marathon for this year!!! Enough is enough!!! >=)
Thank you Jesus, for helping me to stay focus even when my legs were hurting and help me tahan my bang sai til I finish. Haha. *You have no idea*

朋友們都結婚去了

Just in case you're wondering, don't have to go Google translate la. My title is translated as "Friends are getting married". It's actually a sad song by Yu Heng, a very talented local artist, describing how she feels when her friends are getting married, while she deals with the lost of someone she loves. Haih. But still, she believes someday, she'll find love again. =)

But anyhow, this post is not about any sad drama stories!

We had our Youth Impact gathering yesterday, to celebrate Sam and Nicholes upcoming wedding; and also to congratulate Reuben for getting engaged just a few days ago. =) All grown up men now. I still remember they were a bunch of monkeys during schooling days. Still are, but matured monkeys now. HAHAHA.

And it was really nice to meet up with the beautiful-beautiful sekalian.
Girls, someday, it will be our turn. When the right one comes along. =)

[thegirls]

Yes. Des has finally found who he really is inside.

Photo credits to Ping

[theboys]

So...we had lunch at this place called Little Big Cafe, in Nagore road (Opposite Pik Nik).
They serve western. So please don't expect Hokkien mee inside. Heh.

I don't know what are your burger preferences, but their Bacon Swiss Godzilla is the BOMB!!! *drools*

Theresa said their salmon burger was good too, Ah Ping like their wasabi burger (but Deswyn hated it - he said eat two bowls of hokkien mee wayyyyyy better HAHA), Woan Sein's Sleeping Beauty burger was great too. =) Definitely a place I would recommend to friends, just that you may want to load up your wallet 'cause it isn't exactly the price of your usual ramli burgers. ;)

[Creative lights]

[^O^]

[Bacon Swiss Godzilla *RAWRRRRRRRRR*]

 

[Yilin always has the coolest jackets =) ]

[The OCD thing again]

Many of us are leaving for somewhere after this. It's funny how life is sometimes, from small little monsters to being who we are today. I guess through the good and bad, we really have to thank God for holding us close and helping us through. None of us could have possibly still be here if it wasn't for His love, grace and mercy. I know I wouldn't. =)

Love, 

This Is A Long Goodbye

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do
It sure is hard to do

I know they say if it don't come back again
Then it's meant to be
Those words don't pull me through
'Cause I'm still in love with you

I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me goin' through the mill
Climbin' up a hill

This is the long goodbye, somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breakin' a heart
No matter how hard I try, I always make you cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happenin' here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance
But I know without a doubt
We turned it inside out

And if we walked away
Would it make more sense
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try

How long must we keep running on a carousel
Goin' round and round and never gettin' anywhere
On a wing and prayer

This is the long goodbye, somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breakin' a heart
No matter how hard I try, I always make you cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happenin' here is a long goodbye, long goodbye

Long goodbye
Long goodbye
This is a long goodbye
This is a long goodbye
Long goodbye

Merdeka Cup 2013

Merdeka Cup 2013. =)
A great trip.
*End of post*

HAHAHAHAHA!!! No laaaa...=) I have so much more to say.

I wish I could explain to you how proud I am of my girls and their performance in Merdeka Cup '13. But I just couldn't. =) To be honest, I was very worried and troubled when I first recruited the team 'cause half of the team were made up of new girls; and the other more experience half are not able to make it for training due to exams and work. This puts me & the coaches (Sam & Jeremy) in big dilemma 'cause we need the experience players to go against the already expected BIGGER opponents; but the younger, newer players were the ones dedicated & committed to every single training. :S Plus, I have a very very fresh and new goalie, Michaela who had to step in for the legendary Sharron as she just underwent a knee surgery. =(

But the girls really made me proud during both games. =) I told them, "History is not gonna repeat itself, we are not gonna lose to them, we are gonna change history this time." And true enough, we didn't lose any game. It was a 5-5 draw against the KL giants, and a 8-6 win over Selangor ladies. But it wasn't enough for us to be Champion due to the goal difference.

I guess I made a mistake after all. I should have said: "We are gonna lift the cup this year!!" instead. 

WHY LA EELEEN WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!!??!?!?!

Hahahahaha. But if you ask me, was it enough for me...... Honestly & sincerely, it was. =)

It has nothing to do with the results of the game, but to see Penang Women's Floorball grow. At least I know now Penang is gonna have a new batch of young, passionate, aspiring female floorball players coming up. They may not be great yet, but you just wait and see, I assure you. You just wait and see. ;)

 [My pride & joy]

[3 cheers for Team Selangor!!

You should be able to guess which team is Penang based on our jersey. If not, it's time to go back to school to draw & color Penang flag. Lol.]

[It was an honour to be leading the team & screwing referees when they screw us first.]

[Battle scars]

[My koala. Haha.]

[4 hotties & a smoking hot panda =P ]

[Alina & Eeleen. So much to learn from her =) ]

[My favorite picture among all. =) 'Cause I see ONE team.]

 [Together with the Penang boys who emerged as Champion of Merdeka Cup 2013!!! *proud of them*]

I know many of you don't read my blog, but if any of you accidentally swing by;

Sam & Jeremy: 

Thank you for coaching and helping the team to blossom. Sam, wished you could stay longer and help the girls be better players. But you have a higher calling now. Hahaha. Jeremy, you better train the girls so well that they kick asses!! ;)

Penny, Sheryn, Serene, Lavinia, Sophia, Sharron:

Thank you for being the backbone and strong pillar of the team. I hope this passion for floorball will never die, even if our physical ability fail us. HAHAHA. But please la...Mika Kohonen is still playing floorball right now at the age of 36 so you girls have no valid reasons to give. =P

Pei Yi, Natasha, Winnie, Ling Ling:

I know you girls are at a cross road where it will probably lead you to a future which may no longer allow you to be exposed to floorball. Though deep down inside I hope you will continue to play and grow the sport of floorball wherever you go, I wish you girls the best!! And hope that floorball and the people around it help shaped you into someone better. You girls are my pride. Sincerely.

Michaela, Naomi, Yen Yen, Jessie, Shan Ling, Amylia, Sherwin, Beverly:

I admire your courage, your passion, your love for floorball. You girls help remind me why I love floorball in the first place and gave me reasons to continue. And for that, I really wanna thank you. =) You may be young, but don't ever let that stop you from reaching your full potential. Continue to train, and never give up even if you feel like quitting. It's not gonna be easy, that's for sure. But when is anything in life easy..? =)

Love,